Moving forward...a little

Today I am taking small steps in moving forward. I have an interview with Fish and Wildlife. It's just a secretary job but my pay wouldn't change! I'm pretty excited as one of my New Year's resoutions was to get a job that I LOVE! I am also down to $51 left to pay off on my Maurices credit card!!!!!!!!! I did have a little flub last night... I decided that I needed a new bathing suit this year to motivate me to work out more. So I put around $90 on my Vicky's card and purchased two suits to try on..... I know it wasn't very intelligent. My small problem is that I many of my current suits no longer fit or should I say.. aren't my style anymore. I'm not sure why I feel so compelled to purchase things!!!! I can't seem to shake my need for fabulous things! Ugh. One day at a time I suppose.

Sunday night suck

I hate Sunday's. Do you remember how it feels during school and you just lived for Friday's and Sunday's were the absolute worst. I hate Sunday's. I hate the sinking feeling of dread in my gut that I need to wake up at 6AM tomorrow. But hey world, guess what.... I have an interview with US Fish and Wildlife on Thursday as a secretary!!!! I'm pushing forward and I'm going to find a job that doesn't make me feel like this! I'm also down to $100 left to pay off on my Maurices card. I went their today and returned $48 worth of clothing and paid cash for less a pair of pants 9.99 and a shirt 4.99!!!! WIN!!!!! I can be good about shopping you know! I'm going to get through my new years plans like a bull ina china shop!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Finding the dream

I have always firmly believed that you need to LOVE what you do in order to thrive, not survive but THRIVE in this life. I'm very good at preaching this point to anyone who will listen however I seem completely incapable of taking my own advice. So I'm going to start by blogging about my journey and maybe putting it in writing will help me. I've never really LOVED what I've done at least what I've gotten paid to do. So my first step is to talk about the things that make me truly happy. Due to my lack of patience I'm going to just write them down in list order.

1) I love spending time with animals. They are free of judgment (not always for cats though). Piss a cat off and they'll ignore you for days.
2) I love helping people move forward in life. That makes me feel very satisfied.
3) I like helping people in general but in a way that is satisfying to them. I think I have an abnormal ability to empathize with people but I can also be quick to judge. That's probably the downfall to empathy. Sometimes it starts as empathy but then turns to judgment. I'm working on that.
4) I am not creative with art or things like that, but I feel that I'm a creative problem solver. Especially with helping friends out with their problems in life.
5) I enjoy being home cleaning and ironing. I hate cooking. I'm scared of wasting food and I have no natural talent for it.
6) I love shopping for clothing. I could buy a new piece of clothing every day.

I'll leave it with that as of now. I'm going to think about these things a lot of do some networking. I think that networking is good and it keeps you in touch with people and the outside world. With that said, this is my starting point and I plan on moving forward from here. Probably not in a blaze of glory but I must press on!